FUCK IT'S COLD and other stories

[sonjajade]

Wind chill this morning was  a miserable -14 degrees F.  Did I mention I had to warm up a bottle of power steering fluid before I could even put it in the reservoir?  I was only outside for like 5 minutes and had gloves on, but they were going numb by the time I got in the freezing van.  Damn it's cold!!  Joey didn't have school all week the lucky duck, partially due to 11" of snow, partially due to freezing goddamn wind chills.  As it was, I missed half a day on Monday and all of Tuesday.

I feel like I'm drowning at work.  I'm learning so much cool techy stuff, like how to read IP addresss and how to rename networks and manually configure them remotely.  The problem is that it takes 6-8 programs to do all this and we spend like 5 minutes on each program before moving on.  I've cried on the way home twice and in the bathroom once.  I feel better about it all now, but next week we start taking live calls in our training room and I'm absollutely terrified of fucking up and getting it all wrong and ending up fired.  It can't really be as hard as I'm making it out to be, maybe it's just the panic disorder running rampant in my uneasy mind.

At lunch today I realized though I better make this work because THESE PEOPLE ARE FUCKING AWESOME.  Three people from a training class getting ready to graduate sat near me (lunch room was super crowded) and the woman had on a FLAMEL necklace. THE FLAMEL.  I told her I liked it, she said thanks as she whipped out her phone with the tardis cover on it.  I don't watch Dr. Who, but I can appreciate her fandom dedication!  Her and the two guys she was with started playing some card game that had to do with guards, bishops, priests and a princess.  And a girl in my class brought her custom D&D dice to show off, and over half the class watches Attack on Titan and Kill la Kill and Sword Art Online.  These are my people and I belong here- if I could just get the pieces of these programs to fit into place in my mind I'd be set for life.

Doctor had me pickup a blood sugar meter and new test strips.  She wants me to start testing twice a day just to get a level on where I'm at.  No new medications or dietary notes yet, though I imagine the diabetic days are coming.  All in all it's just another brick in the wall.

Comments

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

our brains are excellent at making things seem much harder than they really are. good luck

your coworkers sound cool.

good luck with the diabetes. the invokana is really working for me

[sonjajade.livejournal.com]

took my blood this morning before breakfast it was 107. I don't think that's bad but I'm not a doctor lol.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

No that's within normal when I was in medical school. It's over now but I'm seriously not sure there is ANY documentation damage is done at that level and if it's not just to sell more drugs because that's who does most of this research any more: drug companies

[binaryalchemist.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: I am so proud of you and your new job. And yeah, it gets confusing but you are going to be okay. You're doing what I do for a living and there is a natural learning curve. You're also discovering that there are a lot of very cool people in your workspace--it's OKAY to be a geek and fangirl here! We had a big discussion yesterday about AoT and who's cooler, Mikasa or Levi (wow,hard choice!) and about the awesomeness of Miyazaki and "spirited away" and why Harley Quinn should be in the next Batman movie. I've had plenty of days in tears--but plenty of laughs and good times too. You DO belong and they WILL become a family. Somewhere around the third month of doing this everything will suddenly fall into place. Get as much rest as you can and take it one call at a time....I believe in you!!

[sonjajade.livejournal.com]

our trainer told us that around the end of the second week we'll be as comfortable as some of the old pros upstairs. It's just a matter of learning to swin in these deep waters. I'm getting there and learning more and more everyday. A positive attitude and an open mind everyday help.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Are the programs reviewable at home, or are they specific to the company? Because if you can review them at home online, it might help them stick better.

Yay for fellow work geeks, I love that!

[sonjajade.livejournal.com]

No the programs are only available on the work network. But I agree, if I could practice with my sister over my house phone it would be so much better.

I LOVE these geeks! too awesome! Gonna get a FMAB lanyard next paycheck for my badge.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Hee! That sounds like a good idea, the lanyard.

And yes, any way you can practice in a less stressful situation ought to help you! Be sure to review any notes nightly, too, and try to make notes even during your first couple of weeks of work, just to keep it all in mind.