Begging for a hysterectomy
Feb. 21st, 2018 01:21 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sonjajadeSome days it feels like Aunt Flo is NEVER going to leave me. I don't know what's going on in my uterus, but I'm hoping this new gynecologist will order a hysterectomy. Dec 18th I started my period. It continued until February 3rd. Started back up on February 18th- this time super mega heavy flow. Wearing two super plus tampons at a time heavy flow. Soaking through both of them within 2 hours. I almost went to the hospital, probably should have when I started feeling lightheaded. The last two weeks when it was going on before this last round, I had clots the size of baseballs. This time I have more clots, but smaller in size. These clots are not as solid, almost like they're halfway broken down or something. So my original gyno was not concerned, my PCP *is* concerned, and has written me progesterone prescriptions twice to make the period stop. As soon as I run out, I start again, that's the problem. The one time I DID go to the ER over this, they did all kinds of ultrasound imaging and couldn't find anything physically as to why this is happening, and advised me to see my gyno as it was probably hormonal. Whatever, just yank these parts out, I don't need them.
Sorry, that was probably gross, but I wanted to get it off my chest. Couldn't go to work today because I was literally bleeding too much too quickly, and cramping like the devil. In other news, I had a real bad bout of depression relapse over the course of a week when I kept forgetting to take my medicine. Big mistake. Was just as miserable mentally as I was physically with the cramping. Was telling lies all over the place, shoplifting like crazy, hallucinating, stressed to the max... Been taking my meds this week though, and I'm doing much better.
Still can't seem to muster up any desire to write. I tried to write today but only added a little to a stoner series chapter I'm working on. Did post an update to my Desert Rose series. That's the part about depression I can't seem to conquer. I used to craft and paint and draw and write, and now I don't care. I have some scout things I need to finish and I just don't wanna do it. I get overwhelmed pretty easy it seems.
Got a new kitty! Her name is Lula, very sweet girl, just taking her time coming out of her shell. With all the attention I'm giving her, I think Gizmo now hates me. At least she and Flop have a common enemy now lol.
3 month surgiversary- I've lost 43 pounds since I had my sleeve procedure, it's going slow, but I can tell it's working. It was real for me when I realized my panties were too big lol. Was also able to squeeze into an XL size t-shirt for scouts!
Sorry, that was probably gross, but I wanted to get it off my chest. Couldn't go to work today because I was literally bleeding too much too quickly, and cramping like the devil. In other news, I had a real bad bout of depression relapse over the course of a week when I kept forgetting to take my medicine. Big mistake. Was just as miserable mentally as I was physically with the cramping. Was telling lies all over the place, shoplifting like crazy, hallucinating, stressed to the max... Been taking my meds this week though, and I'm doing much better.
Still can't seem to muster up any desire to write. I tried to write today but only added a little to a stoner series chapter I'm working on. Did post an update to my Desert Rose series. That's the part about depression I can't seem to conquer. I used to craft and paint and draw and write, and now I don't care. I have some scout things I need to finish and I just don't wanna do it. I get overwhelmed pretty easy it seems.
Got a new kitty! Her name is Lula, very sweet girl, just taking her time coming out of her shell. With all the attention I'm giving her, I think Gizmo now hates me. At least she and Flop have a common enemy now lol.
3 month surgiversary- I've lost 43 pounds since I had my sleeve procedure, it's going slow, but I can tell it's working. It was real for me when I realized my panties were too big lol. Was also able to squeeze into an XL size t-shirt for scouts!