bad dreams and alien abduction
Sep. 14th, 2015 10:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sonjajadeI had a nigthmare so terrible that when I wole up I thought I'd been abducted by aliens. First, let me start with the dream.
I dream a lot about tornados. Usually it's because something's super stressing me out, and always always always they take place at my childhood home with my mom, dad or sister with me. Anyway, I was trying to gather up all the animals that belonged to me out of the yard because I knew it was going to storm and I wanted to protect the dogs and cats. My mom was helping me some as the clouds were rolling in, and things were okay, but there was an undercurrent of urgency to the whole thing. All at once I see an almost jet black cloud looming on the horizon, like pretty damn close, maybe 1-2 blocks away, and it's churning in seven or eight places. I yell at my mom that it's some kind of super tornado, bigger than anything I've seen before, and the little churning circles start grouping up into one giant circle. Just then, I hear baby kittens mewling and I find them in the flower boxes by the sidewalk and I scramble out the door to save them and when I get back mom and I try to shut the door but it won't shut all the way, like there's a 8 inch gap between the edge of the door and the jamb, like the hinges got moved or something, and this tornado is coming right in the front door and it's starting to suck us off the floor and the kittens went flying out that gap SCREAMING-
When I woke up, I was shaking with fear. You know that fealing you get in your chest when you're terrified? I had that feeling all over my body. Everything was trembling, I was scared all the way down to my toes (yet I wasn't having a panic attack, I was calm and collected mentally...) I didn't want to open my eyes. When I did and saw my room safely around me, I finally felt that fear begin to dissipate. And then something else happened.
You know how when you look at something for a long time and then you close your eyes and you can still see it, jsut in negative? When I closed my eyes again, I saw some very fractal imaages that looked nothing I have in my room. It was like circles in loopy mathematical patterns, it felt very organic to me... Maybe I should put some sketches with this post just to show you what I saw. Anyway, for a good five minutes or more, I lay in bed thinking 'Did I get abducted by aliens? Were they testing something on me?" Because I have never been that frightened by a dream ever, I thoguht maybe they'd given me some kind of hallucinegen to study the effects, and I thought the sights behind my eyes were of the ceiling of the spaceship.
Now look- I do believe there is other life in this universe, it's arrogant to think humans are the only thing out there capabable of space travel and exploration when we live in a massive universe. But do I think they are beaming people aboard their ships and experimenting with them? no. But I have to admit, after last night I have 2 questions: why was I SO completely terrified, and what was I seeing behind my eyelids? Who knows... (the Shadow knows!)
Work sucks and that's the truth. I came home early yesterday because of sinus infection and STILL DEALING WITH MY LEFT GODDAMNED EYE. They don't care. Stare at the glaring bright screen for ten hours please. Oh, and let's open all the blinds and turn all the bright lights on too. Oh, you're light sensitive today? Won't stop you from answering a phone. Can't see the screen because of all the brightness? Here let me turn the monitor down for you, oh and wear your sunglasses. What do you mean you can't wear your script lenses and your sunglasses at the same time? I'm not gonna quit, they'll have to fire me, but I've got back up plans in case that happens. (Likely, this is the reason I had the tornado dream in the first place)
I dream a lot about tornados. Usually it's because something's super stressing me out, and always always always they take place at my childhood home with my mom, dad or sister with me. Anyway, I was trying to gather up all the animals that belonged to me out of the yard because I knew it was going to storm and I wanted to protect the dogs and cats. My mom was helping me some as the clouds were rolling in, and things were okay, but there was an undercurrent of urgency to the whole thing. All at once I see an almost jet black cloud looming on the horizon, like pretty damn close, maybe 1-2 blocks away, and it's churning in seven or eight places. I yell at my mom that it's some kind of super tornado, bigger than anything I've seen before, and the little churning circles start grouping up into one giant circle. Just then, I hear baby kittens mewling and I find them in the flower boxes by the sidewalk and I scramble out the door to save them and when I get back mom and I try to shut the door but it won't shut all the way, like there's a 8 inch gap between the edge of the door and the jamb, like the hinges got moved or something, and this tornado is coming right in the front door and it's starting to suck us off the floor and the kittens went flying out that gap SCREAMING-
When I woke up, I was shaking with fear. You know that fealing you get in your chest when you're terrified? I had that feeling all over my body. Everything was trembling, I was scared all the way down to my toes (yet I wasn't having a panic attack, I was calm and collected mentally...) I didn't want to open my eyes. When I did and saw my room safely around me, I finally felt that fear begin to dissipate. And then something else happened.
You know how when you look at something for a long time and then you close your eyes and you can still see it, jsut in negative? When I closed my eyes again, I saw some very fractal imaages that looked nothing I have in my room. It was like circles in loopy mathematical patterns, it felt very organic to me... Maybe I should put some sketches with this post just to show you what I saw. Anyway, for a good five minutes or more, I lay in bed thinking 'Did I get abducted by aliens? Were they testing something on me?" Because I have never been that frightened by a dream ever, I thoguht maybe they'd given me some kind of hallucinegen to study the effects, and I thought the sights behind my eyes were of the ceiling of the spaceship.
Now look- I do believe there is other life in this universe, it's arrogant to think humans are the only thing out there capabable of space travel and exploration when we live in a massive universe. But do I think they are beaming people aboard their ships and experimenting with them? no. But I have to admit, after last night I have 2 questions: why was I SO completely terrified, and what was I seeing behind my eyelids? Who knows... (the Shadow knows!)
Work sucks and that's the truth. I came home early yesterday because of sinus infection and STILL DEALING WITH MY LEFT GODDAMNED EYE. They don't care. Stare at the glaring bright screen for ten hours please. Oh, and let's open all the blinds and turn all the bright lights on too. Oh, you're light sensitive today? Won't stop you from answering a phone. Can't see the screen because of all the brightness? Here let me turn the monitor down for you, oh and wear your sunglasses. What do you mean you can't wear your script lenses and your sunglasses at the same time? I'm not gonna quit, they'll have to fire me, but I've got back up plans in case that happens. (Likely, this is the reason I had the tornado dream in the first place)