sonjajade: (shin whitey)
2019-11-06 02:27 am
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What is done in the dark will be brought to the light...

I found out yesterday that my dad molested his little sister for years when he was a teenager, and that he had pedophile tendencies that led to his compulsive lying. My mother said she was terrified that she had two daughters knowing what he’d done to his sister, and the fact he slept naked, and the fact he would watch porn knowing we weren’t sleep yet. 

I guess I always suspected something was off about him, but I didn't think he'd done anything like that. I don't even know how to treat him afterward now that I know. Like what the fuck do I do with this information and this jumbled up mess of emotions now? 

sonjajade: (merry christmas)
2015-12-21 05:49 pm
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Most depressing Happiness Jar list ever

I have a jar I keep on my altar that I fill up throughout the year with positive things that make me happy.  On Yule, I like to open the jar and read all the awesome stuff that I did and be thankful for everythig in the jar.

I coulnd't be more depressed.  I found lots of slips related to the $14 an hour job and the progress on my weight loss I'd made.  Here's the list in its entirety if you're interested. I think I'm gonna go cry for a few hours.

HAPPINESS JAR MOMENTS 2015

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